hoi! selamat hari tua ;p

well well and well~

saengil chukkha hamnida...

saengil chukkha hamnida...

sarang ha neun 愛美 kunnie...

saengil chukkha hamnida....~

nah, amek d present.

maapla, bz sket nk happyo minggu ni.huhu. dis wiken we go for celebrate ye ;)

aimi,

sarang hae!!

p/s- pardon that spider. i hve nothin nk tomaru kn dat riben, plus, riben pun out of stock.haha. (bajet bz abes kn.haha.) eyh tp ia still dibuat dgn penuh kaseh syg ;p

muka anda bisa dipercayai?

tidak dinafikan, orang berdarah A jenis yg mudah stress dek kerana extra paras kortisol berbanding jenis-jenis darah yg laen. dan tidak dinafikan jugak, sy adalah org berdarah A yg selalu menafikan diri ini sedang stress walaupun hakikatnya fakta sy stress itu boleh dikesan dgn mudah oleh semua orang melalui perubahan mimik muka sy.

tapi serius cakap, dah lama x sestress ini - saket ruang antara dua kening yg atas batang hidung tuh. apa nama dia eyh? sy gugle x jupe jwpn, malas nk menstresskn dri lagi, makanya mari berputus asa. serius sakitnya sampai sy rse nk menjerit kat semua orang.

keluar bilik sensei dgn muka sememeh. 40minit duduk depan sensei sy rasa dah cukup mencover aktiviti berkerut sy untuk satu bulan ini. memaksa otak berfikir dan berfikir, dalam masa yg sama cuba menghadam butir bicara sensei yg berlapik sana dan sini bukanlah kerja mudah untuk saya. 

hakkiri yutte kure yo~

ganbaru shikanai!

jumaat - zentai zemi happyo. first time nk happyo idea dpan budak lab dlm nihongo, dan masalahnya batang hidung idea pon langsung x nampak lg.

27 october - chuukan happyo dpan budak gakka. progress 6bulan ditambah dgn progress idea baru, in nihongo. nihongo no chikara, dashite kure wawa!

anyway, gugel mengugel, jupe plak mnde menarik.

not-so-low but not-so-high inner eyebrows (medium eyebrows?), pretty shallow indentation, pronounced cheekbones, considerably quite wide chin ME,

ahhhakks.

such a trustworthy face of mine. ahahaha!

(oh ini gmbar i pegi intebiu keje hokey? so much very very luck.hoho) 

p/s- rse batang hidung mcm da cukup kurus, knp dlm gmb ni nmpk mcm batang hidung i lebarr heww? gmb yg menipu.

p/s2- salah satu xtvt menangani stress.

karnivOr tachi

karnivor-karnivor yg memburu ikan paus!

steak ikan paus, ada berani?

rupa chantek mcm daging lembu, kunyah-kunyah, langsung xdek rse lembu. huerm, bukan sy lah yg mengunyah tu yg pastinya.hehe. gmb disnap drpd pinggan inche kohai. pinggan sndri plain sgt stakat makan ikan buntal goreng gtu.

pasar ikan yamaguchi. spotted those hero-hero saijou. *ecehhhh hero*

siyesly nice, ye la klo kite kt mesia xbpe nk nice ler kn, silap haribulan dicop 'perak lagi jakun' pulak oleh inche emak andainya semangat dok snap2 gmbo kt pasar gni. tp almaklumlah, inikan bumi jepang, sungguh rare kot nk jupe tmpt mcm ni. so, pardon our kejakunan eyh.

gmb mcm dekat oversea.

haruss....we crossed the sea to go to the over sea. suasana sungguh 'luar negara', melepak sejenak di persekitaran luar pasar ikan.

oh, lihat pinggan sy yg plain itu? well, hidup perlu rendah diri. heh.

hisabisa bersuasana meriah sebegini. biasanya beriuh rendah dgn saijo minah tachi jek, sekali sekala kembali ber'jemaah' bersama saijo mamat tachi, terasa air mata mcm nk meleleh keluar. *ayat ober*

nah, dis. to whom it may concern.

pen merah pen biru.

;D

p/s- bersembang tentang kawen lg dgn org sekeliling. berfikir dan merancang bukan setakat hingga ke pelamin, tp wajib harus hingga ke anak punya lampin. oh ngeri! harus keje kuat menabung!

tentang dia - gigi.

curiosity.

so i googled it.

shinkei tourimasu? shinkei torimasu? docchi?

(lalu kot saraf? cabut saraf? which one?)

inilah masalahnya apabila kita berada bukan di bumi sendiri. haih, hujan emas di negeri orang sungguhlah, sampai saket pon nak kne google bersungguh.

"da tau akan ada 'shinkei touru'?" akak nurse b'tanya kepada inche doktor.

"da, last week da bgtaw da. worst-case situation, akan ada 'shinkei touru'" inche doktor menjawab smbil mencucuk-cucuk gigi saya. berdas-das suntikan bius nmpknye hari ni.

di kiri ku akak nurse, di kanan ku inche doktor, dan sy terbaring tengah2 da kebas xley nk buat apa. mereka lagut berbual di atas muka sy. then, akak nurse pandang muka sy smbil b'tnye, "ok ke?". sye mengangguk mcm x berapa nk angguk. sedikit berkerut. sebenarnya dalam kepala ligat memproses perkataan 'shinkei touru', apakah ia sebenarnya? why sounds so serious? adakah sy salah dngar or salah faham?

aahh.. da x kesahlah apa inche doktor tu nk wat kt gigi sy, yg penting, lepas ni da xnk saket da.

extravaganza la jugak mesin-mesin gerudi inche dentist minggu ni, x mcm minggu lepas. well, i guess minggu lepas gigi kecik, minggu ni gigi geraham, kne work hard sket ye dak?

selesai proses mesin dan gerudi, inche doktor sempat bagi amanat,

"nnt kite produce ubat, bile saket makan ye. and next week u have to dtg lg ye"

inche doktor ensem lagi baek hati. huahuahua.

sbb curious, so balik2 smpi umah sy terus google.

hoh! ini rupanya yg doktor tu lakukan.

ROOT CANAL TREATMENT!

so, bliaw cabut saraf gigi sy!

shinkei tourimasu jyanakute, shinkei torimasu. shokku.

sepanjang mereka beroperasi dlm mulut sy, sy hanya ingatkan prose gerudi2 ni akan lalu kot saraf since kecederaan gigi agak dalam, so, akan ad berdarah-darah la nnt. and doktor tu pun siap bubuh kapas tebal dlm mulut sy, so i was thinking that kapas-kapas tu memang utk serap darah yg bakal 'terpancut' kua. sy siap dok imagine lagi how would i react if i happen to see those darah-darah tuh.would i fall into pitam or i'd be steady like, 'eleh, darah..'. oh i dun think so.

but then, x sempat le plak nk tgok kapas2 berdarah nye pon. dan sekejap jek plak proses menampal nye. minggu lepas bukan maen lagi dy tarik n balut2 mcm plaster gitu punya la nk bg melekat kan.

so, curious punye pasal, sy pn gugel..

homaigaddd.. dy cabut urat saraf gigi tuh utk prevent infection.

'to cure the infection and save the tooth, the dentist drills into the pulp chamber and removes the infected pulp and then drills the nerve out of the root canal with long needle-shaped drills'

oh ia bunyinya agak ngeri.

ye, this is the needle yg doktor tu gune which i tot dy nga cuci ruang antara gigi sy jek. huhu. menyimpang jauh sama sekali rupenye.

after removing as much of the internal pulp as possible, the root canal can be temporarily filled with calcium hydroxice paste. this strong alkaline base is left for a week or more to disinfect and reduce inflammation in surrounding tissue *naruhodo.. that's why sy kne pegi lg next week.huhuu..*
after receiving a root canal, the tooth should be protected with a crown that covers the cusps of the tooth. 

also, root canal teeth tend to be more brittle than normal teeth because the blood supply to the tooth is removed during the root canal procedure, leaving the tooth without a source of moisture replenishment.
*okay, ini semakin mengerikan*

apabila sarafnya sudah tiada, maka kita xkn sedar gigi tu saket ke x sehat ke, makanya regular x-rays amat penting to ensure that the tooth is not having any problem yg kite x sedar.


the ngeri-est part is,
'after endodontic surgery the tooth will be 'dead', and if an infection is spread at apex, root end surgery is required.'

for some patients, root canal therapy is one of the most feared dental procedures - patutlah! akak nurse sgt risau ble tengok muka sy yg semacam xd perasaan.
ye, ketahuilah wahai kakak, dek kerana sy x berapa nk faham bhse ni lah makanya muka sy x berperasaan. kalau sebelum pegi sy da tau awal2 doktor tu nk korek gigi sy smpi cabut urat sume, sy wat2 pengsan kt tengah jalan kot. huhu.


masih terkejut. tp bersyukur.
terkejut satu gigiku sudah tidak 'bernyawa'.
bersyukur sbb dari awal tu memang x faham bahasa.



p/s- ingat tu kawan-kawan, jgn makan aeskem sebelum tdo, jgn malas gosok gigi sebelum tdo. jgn menzalimi diri sendiri dgn pen'torture'an sebegini.

syndrom rungsing

i know i'm a freak.

semakin lama semakin mem'freak'kan dri sndri. homaigadddd.

leeteuk, donghae, kyuhyun, sungmin, eunhyuk, yesung, siwon, shindong, ryeowook, kangin, heechul, kibum.

seee, sy bleh sebut sorang-sorang name ahli super junior da skrg...hooomaigadd. 

once upon a time, bilamana intenet rumah sy b'mslh, haruslah dipanggil uncle2 tachi yg hebat2 supaya dtg menyelamatkan keadaan, betul x? dan disebabkan ketika waktu kejadian sy sedang ralit dan b'semangat b'sembang dgn kawan sy yg dtg b'tandang ke rumah, makanya tanpa sedar sy terbiarkan pasokon sy berkeadaan sebegini

and the awkward moment ble sy t'sedar yg sy TERLUPA nk ubah wallpaper desktop sy tuh, and tanpa sy sempat berbuat apa-apa mereka dah pun mengadap pasokon sy.

saat itu, i was like

ooooemmmmgeeeee...

a total embarrassment. seriously.

tp haruslah sy wat2 cool konon-konon wat-wat xto kan, padahal jantung rse nk meletup tahan rse malu. 

 dlm kepala dok berlari-lari segala macam assumption tentang ape yg pakcek-pakcek ni pk mse tgok desktop sy tu ha. huwaaaaa..ble teringat ni siyes rse nk lari menyorok bawah katil. haha.

sy xd la kelihatan seperti seorang yg sgt freak sgt kan? *cube menenangkan diri sndri* its normal la sebenarnya kalau pempuan letak gmbr artis korea cmni as wallpaper desktop. lgpon sy letak gmb tu sbb yogeun (the baby) tu comel gle tmbh-tmbh ble dy menangis dgn minho (bapak baby tu kgkonon). bukannye sy letak gmbr 2pm badan ketul2 x pki baju tunjuk six pack pun kan? haha!

lelaki letak gmb akb48 berminiskirt as wallpaper mmg tercetus di hati sy lah bliaw hentai, makanya, sy pon tidak haruslah meletakkn gmb 2pm bersix pack tu sbb nnt ad plak lelaki pk sy hentai, desyou? haha.

dan ini wallpaper baru, sopan sikit. dan membantu memotivasikan diri sket, iAllah hopefully.

teringat perbualan dgn inche kawan (seorang gadis jepun tp ber'citarasa' american). dy terkejut tgok wallpaper phone sy. well, salunye wallpaper phone n wallpaper desktop sy same jek. 

and u know what she said?

"kimochi waruiiiii"

sy terdiam sesaat. sesaat jek lah. then membalas,

"desuyone........"

(pasrah mengiyakan)

kemudian kitorang tergelak. 

for her, it is kimochi waruii since ia adalah lelaki asia yg CANTEK, langsung tidak kehenseman mahupun m'punyai ciri-ciri kelelakian yg gagah. she prefers american men much better.

and for me, it is kimochi waruii since terase dri sndri sgt freak berwallpaper sebegitu, as i always think that wallpaper tu selalu m'cerminkan pemiliknya mcm mne. haha. mslh komplikated kendiri.

ahhhh..mungkin segalanya langsung tiada kaitan dgn apa-apa. sekadar mainan dan suka-suka. 

haishh.. yg sy pk teruk pasal wallpaper-wallpaper ni kenapa?

inilah namanya syndrom rungsing malam hujung minggu terperuk dok depan pasokon kt umah.

haihhh..

 p/s- kadang-kadang x paham dgn otak sndri yg salu pk komplikated. huh. 

doktor gigi dan inche bapak.

yeah, my internet is back!

thanks to uncle mat n the team. huahuahua.

anyway, hari ini sangat panjang. seriusly, 

saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangat panjang.

45 minutes seems like forever for me to lying down there, on that chair. fewww~ next appointment, next Tuesday. homaigadd, even after 3hours (plus plus) lpas dibius, i still cannot feel my upper bibir. hoh, terase hot seperti angelijolie sepanjang hari. heh.

6 months ago, when i first turning in myself to the dentist and i was expecting that i'm having mushiba, the dentist was kind like, 

"eyh no lah, ur gigi seems fine. everything cantek maa. keep on taking good care of ur gigi"

fewwww~

but, then today, after that 6 months, i found myself with no any other option better than surrendering to the dentist, AGAIN, and this time i have to face the reality that i'm having mushibaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

what kind of grown up dewase yg ad mushiba at dis age kn? hoh. i hate those sreett srettt sounds of the mesin gigi, seriously. its kinda psycho!

ok, leave the part of my battling with the dentist, lets move on to the next chapter. eheh.

ahhaa. inilah warga-wargi lab sye. 

yg tengah2 gagah berdiri tu sensei first, sblah dy opkos la his wife. to those yg x penah tau, the one yg standing behind me tu lah my inche bapak. haha. kachakk lagi muda kan? hehe. ini gurauan.

then next sblah dy lg, sensei nombor 3, the muda'est one. then, yg baju merah sebelah sy tu bukanlah ahli lab kami, dy da jadi dai senpai, dtg sje nk m'ceriakn suasana.

hoh~ maji gmb ni x ditangkap dgn baek. dgn efek angin titanic nya, org dok sebok2 nga pukul bola laginye, ktorg sempat plak la kn kyukei jap nk tgkp gmbo. hoh, langsung x dpt background stadium.

anyway, ni gmb mse pegi tgok game baseball last week, dgn budak2 lab. woaaaa~ yappari sy better stay at home than pegi menonton kt stadium, bley naek sawan emosional klo tgok team sndri di ambang kekalahan. naseb baek tema hiroshima menang ritu, even last minute tu cm nk kalah dah. kalo x, pulang dgn air mata kot ktorg sume nih. haha.

dua orang warga indonesia, teman se'lab. spotted, inche bapak di belakang. nk jugk join gmbo.

ni di ambang kemenangan okay, get ready utk melepaskan bebelon carp ke udara. time ni round ketujuh, and hiroshima is leading. n tym ni ramai la jugk yg mula b'ansur pulang sbb sgt kompiden n yakin hiroshima menang. (abaikan dat oily-bley wat goreng ikan-face of mine.uhukss)

but serius, rugi korang blik awal. team lawan mengejut 3 mata tros kt 8th round. terngangalah semua warga hiroshima time tu, termasuklah sy. terasa stadium yg tadinye bising nk mampus jd sunyi sepi. dnga la jugk suara penyokong team lwn yg x smpi pon 1/10 drpd penyokong hiroshima yg dari awal td dok senyap jek. 

walaubagaimanapun, pusingan ke-9, penentu, hirose ap ntah nme pemain tuh, berjaya menyelamatkn keadaan. maka, dgn itu b'akhirlah perlawanan dgn kemenangn mutlak menjadi hak milik hiroshima!

tp, smlm ad game lg, hiroshima vs yakult, kalah boh.

seb bek x tgok.huhu.

anyway, before g tgok game tuh, me and my friend pergi berfoya-foya sebentar mencuci mata menikmati keindahan hari jumaat. eheh. dat's us. hari skolah org sebok belajar n bekerja, we're busy playing around. hoho.

i looked pretty skinny here. naruhodo. illusi optik nih. i'm actually not dis skinny. lemak merata-rata hoii.

x nampk la plak ladang yg penuh bunganya. nmpk mcm ijau jek yg byk kn? ekceli bunga saaangat banyak n lawa, tp, well, salahkn photographer. haha!

horaaa.. kirei desyou? omaigadd.. fokus tang ke mne, blurr tang ke mne. well, blame the photographer! haha!

in conclusion,

last friday was a really good day in my life. even sume orang mule tensen menensen since chukan happyo is around the corner, sume still can spend time together mcm ni. i love everyone in that lab, espc of course la my friends and my inche bapak. but, actually i'm kinda feel bad to the senpai tachi since they're trying hard to talk to me, to be naka yoku with me, but, me, on the other hand, trying to stay away from them. huhuu.. i'm sorry, i'm that kind of person, pretty bad towards new people. 

and that is me!

ehehh, iklan colgate skett. gigi nga sehat lg time ni, bley aa nk tunjuk2.

p/s- aki is coming! my feberet season! hok3.

p/s2- tajuk inche bapak mcm xbpe nk ad kaetan gk la kn..huhuhu..

kokoro ga, karada ga, kimi wo oboeteiru~

mari berjiwang-jiwang sket nak?

whenever i wake up in the morning 
there's only your empty shells beside me

my back which used to feel your warmth, now it's cold

stop bitter smile, open that heavy curtain

it's like playing hide and seek everyday with so bright morning sunshine

your crying face and sunset on you on that day and warm feeling left on my shoulder

every time i wanna forget, my heart and my body still remember you

your love forever

with my eyes closed i'm drawing you, i'm just happy with that

although this season passes with my heart left behind

someday soon, will i be able to feel nothing of you?

or is it going to be good just to fall asleep with this pain?

that day which we cast our wishes on the starry sky

the light we've been seek is going deem and disappearing, but, my heart and my body is glowing by you

i wish forever

with my eyes closed i'm drawing you, that's the only thing i can do

although this season passes with my heart left behind

your love forever

with my eyes closed i'm drawing you, i'm just happy with that

although this season changes its color without me

i'm okay with just finding you in my memory

because the power to overcome this losing is from you

you gave it to me...

ye, lagu ni same dgn lagu kt tepi belog sy ni. tp ni version penyanyi asal, ken hirai. translation dy ad la serba sedikit seperti yg dicoret di atas. uhuk3.first time dnga lagu ni, sebak jek rse jantung. tp x sangka le plak ble tgok lirik dy memang sebak sesungguh. lagu sadis ni namanya.

thank God, we're kind of 'cerai-hidup'. even i lost him, i know he's still alive, breathing healthily somewhere out there on the globe, at least until the moment of which i care. unfortunately, there are still lots of people who's going through a 'cerai-mati' phase. honestly, i can't even imagine how it would be if it was a 'cerai-mati' case for me. must feel hundreds time terrible then, i guess.

anyway, i dunno how others interpret this song, but for me, first time i sang this song with my friend, nantonaku i felt like this song is written by a  husband/bf whose wife/gf had passed away. huk3. sadis kan?

berdoa sgt kt Tuhan, mintak simpang dijauhkan daripada dugaan sebegitu.

tokorode, esok nk g tgok yakyu kt stadium mazda! weeeeee~~hu. fes time kot! :D