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salam dr okayama!

well,sye msih d okayama...liat pule rsenye nk kembali ke bumi asal, hiroshima..(not to mention dat hiroshima n okayama are not in d same planet..)..trase nk spend tym lg kt cnie..nk b`nonbiri lg, wlupun bnyk repot, kadai n shiken mnanti...inilah sye, ble saat trase sye sudah smpi d thp genkai, sye perlu m`cri sesuatu...

mungkin bg sesetengah org, tindakan sye x ptut..melarikan dri drpd mslh, x berusahe utk mnyelesaikan....(seolah-olah sye lah org plg b`mslh ats muke bumi ni..hehe..)
xdeklah...bkn mcm tu sbnanye..

act sye dtg ke cni bkn nk lari drpd mslh...xdek mslh pun..sapelah sye ni utk ad mslh berat bebeno smpey beban otak kepale sume2...n bukn juge hnye utk b`suke ria m`buang mase...ap yg mmpu sye katekn,sye sdang cube utk menyusun kembali sgale data dlm otak sye, cube utk m`cri kembali dri sndri..n cube utk membawa dri kembali kpd mud sbnar...xnk la org mengadap sye yg dlm keadaan tensen2, marah2 jek...kang x pasal2 sume org x puas hati mlayan mud sye yg x menentu nie...hurm...nmpk cm susa plak nk fhm..

tp juz imagine dri sndri je la...juz pk, sumtym trase x mcm nk lari drpd kehidupan sbnar? without any reason, nantonaku, juz rse nk lari drpd dri sndri..rse cm nk ke tmpt laen, nk mngadap bende laen, nk cube sesuatu yg laen..xtaw la law sye sorg jek yg mcm nie...tp xtaw npe, sye rse sye yakin sgt sume org mcm sye...

maybe sye jek yg x pndi nk kawal dri sndri...sbb sye  xpndi la sye memerlukan org laen yg mmpu m`bntu sye...nk kate sye x mmpu b`dikari n x mmpu nk b`gntung kpd dri sndri??
kate la ape saje pun, tp itu mmg kelemahan sye...sye akui..sye mmg x pndi n x mmpu nk urus dri sndri...n bknnye sye xnk blaja..of kos, sye nk blaja...tp bia la sket2 dlu...stiap org b`beza n stiap org ad care b`beza n stiap org ad titik lemah yg b`beza...so, x perlu nk banding bezakn org laen dgn dri sndri...

ni bru slh satu drpd beribu lagi titik lemah yg sye ade...smakin sye cube utk m`hapuskn semue titik lemah tu, smakin bnyk pule titik baru yg timbul...tp sye tetap xkn ptus ase utk b`usahe..iA.

ya Allah, sesungguhnye aq hambaMu yg serba lemah...

* doakn perjalann pulang sye esok slamat n dipermudahkn...ad class 3 n 4 koma esok. =)