kawEn mudA?

'boleh pula sambung blaja even da pregnant? x susah ke?'

'macam mana nak blaja kalau da kawen? nnt otak berpikir cabang bagai.dgn nk jge laki lg, nk stdy lg, keje umah keje skola. sudahnye, sume x jln'

'skunk ni zaman orang kawen awal mak. time blaja sume tuh bese dah zmn ler ni'

'awak dah ready ke nak tinggalkan zaman bujang? da bersedia betul2 nk jd isteri orang?'

kalau suatu ketika dulu, ble orang cakap sal kawen awal, segala-galanya nmpk pelik, ganjil, aneh. x masok lagi dgn orang2 ckp belakang ttg kenapa nak sangat dipercepatkan perkahwinan. mulalah timbul kisah2 pelik kononnye si anu si anu da begini begitu. ble diaju soal kawen, orang akn cakap, 'nk masak megi sendiri pon x lepas lagi, jgn mimpi nk jd bini orang' - mentaliti yg sye akui sye sendiri pernah mengamalkannya.

sejajar dgn modenisasi dunia, seolah-olah minda dan pemikiran orang-orang kita nampaknya makin matang dan terbuka. satu persatu kwn2 seperjuangan naik pelamin. kawen masa belajar, nmpknye makin menjadi pilihan, atas rasional mengelakkan maksiat dan cakap2 buruk orang keliling. turut kaut untung, media cetak media elektronik sama naik setiap hari berdebat baik buruk perkahwinan di usia muda. wah wah wah.

jujur diakui ble tgok kgkwn laen da mule mendirikan rumah tangga di usia muda, sy sndiri turut ter'wavered skali. pilihan hati iA sudah ada. tambah pula dgn asakan n desakan kiri kanan atas belakang, ikotkan hati terpacul jugk mulut ni minx permission kt mak nk kawen.

siapa yg xnk kawen baii??

ble da jumpe org yg berkenan, tambah pula serasi bersama, iA cukup segala sempurna sifatnye, kurang sikit sana sini tu perkara biasa, boelh ditopup dari masa ke masa, siapa yg xnk? siapa yg xnk menghalalkan yg sepatutnye? sye nak, serius sy nak. 

-tarik nafas dalam-dalam-

'kawen awal byk manfaatnye. ko nk berkepit bape lame ng laki ko pon, orang x kate ape dah. senang ke hulu ke hilir ikot suke kn'

'tp betul ke nk kawen? jgn wat keputusan terburu-buru. x perlu tergesa-gesa, tp jgn jugk tertangguh-tangguh' - ceyh, cam ayat ustaz hasrizal jek.

 sy pernah menjadi seorang yg sgt komited dgn cita-cita sye. pernah suatu ketika, dalam kepala ni xd mende laen selaen drpd belajar -> good result -> good future. my parents are my first priority. blaja utk dptkn pekerjaan yg baek, x kesah kejenye ape, asalkan ayah sye akn cukup bangga utk memperkenalkan sye terhadap saudara mara yg selalu pandang rendah pde keluarga kami. x kesah doktor jurutera pharmacist, x kesah. asalkan promising job for promising salary n promising future.

menjadi seorang wanita bekerjaya dan mampu berdiri di atas kaki sendiri, perghhhh. kawen? mungkin pada usia 27 andainya ketemu pasangan berkenan. dan iA pada waktu itu, sy sudah stabil dgn dri sndri. mampu melakukan byk perkara ats usaha sndri, n mudah-mudahan dah mmpu membela nasib keluarga sndiri.

tp tu dulu la.

x sangka, segala-galanya berjalan laen daripada yg dirancang. jalan hidup sy terrotate 180 darjah. seawal usia 21 sye da sebok bercakap ttg kawen, berangan ttg kehidupan berumah tangga. tambah pula galakan kgkwn, sy kononnye berasa yakin utk memulakan alam hidup berdua, bajet kompiden utk lupekan alam single mingle yg siyes nikmat nih. haih. ape le da jd ng dri sndiri nih... senang sgt wavering..

yakin benarkah utk berkahwin di usia muda?

jgn tergesa-gesa, jgn pula tertangguh-tangguh.

ayah kata, wat satu persatu, bia tenang bia lurus.

btol wawa. wat satu persatu. mmg kawen awal nk elak maksiat, tp maksiat tu bley dielak andai pndi kawal nafsu. darah muda kononnye mengelegak, syaitan pon makin galak dok maen cucuk2.

tgok blik ap niat nk gesa-gesa sgt kawen awal tuh; kalo stakat nk elak orang ckp buruk tmbul fitnah, byk lg cara laen yg boleh dipikirkan. kawen bukan utk sehari dua. andai bercerai berai mereka x rugi ape2. dri sndri yg merana. rilek2, cool2. mne yg buruk cuba perbaikkan, mne yg salah cube perbetulkan.

p/s. mmg x mati dgn prasangka orang, tp xkn mmpu hidup klo x amek pki nasehat orang, kn? :)

bumping2

alhamdulillah selamat suda sampey kt umah arini. drive from kL to perak, agak fun. tp panas berdetung, rse mndi peluh gak le dlm keta tuh td. huhu.

eyh btol ke drive dr kl ke perak ni??

eyh orang2 pro kt lua sne yg da bese bwk kete pliz jgn menyampuk. sy ni bkn amatur, beginner pon x lepas lg nih. sbb tu la da nk sodok da lori dpan mata td mse nk msok r&r. cuak sat tang bumper jalan. igt cm bwk motor, ley pki redah jek bumper, bru la leyh bumping2, ropenye tang kete kne slow.. huheh. seb bek, pnjg lagi nyawa den. alhamdulillah. :)

( cekgu memandu yg garang, heh =.= )

thanks korang!

char kuey teow stesen universiti di tengah malam = heaven.

maple section 14 di tengah malam = heaven gk.

sakan membuang duet di mid valley = jugk heaven.

mne yg paling heaven?

of course nasik lemak cik ape ntah nme dy kt maple section 14 tuh.. hohoho.

small reunion ng skulmates ;

kedit to fesbuk bib ( siyes dy pndi tgkp gmbr weyh. perlukn khidmat? g roger fesbuk dy )

'bib, diorang ajak g mkn kt maple, diorg nk jupe wawa'

- oww goshh..siyes touchin bebb, sye rse cm nk leleh2 air mata ni ha mengalir, terharu dowh...(siyes2..) thanx guys! rse cm kepulangan disambut. 

of course, millions thanks to bib; 

for sure, dy salu jd org pertama yg sy akn gtaw sy blik, org pertama yg akn sy cri ble sy blik, org pertama yg sy akn jupe ble sy blik. byk la yg pertama, juz dy bukan makwe pertama jek

riuh gamat kot konsert maher zain tuh. of course sy nmpk dy, tp of course jugk la dy x nmpk sye +.+'

seb bek jari kelingking sy kecik sket dr dia - nk gtaw la, sy xdekla dok jaoh beno dr dy. hehe.

even da lunyai n suara da serak, dy still fight kott.. audiences punye pasal kn... thanx maher zain :)

okai. end of d story.

p/s. siyesly, need to re'plan' my future. somebody, marry me ;(

koreA ~

spring trip to korea. hohoho.

:)

sblom blik mesia, meh smangat tinggal tapak kaki kt belog berhabuk nih.

my first meal in korea. kt kedai obaasan yg mmg x reti lngsung ckp english or japanese. first time btol2 b'interaksi cm ayam n itik.

first night in busan.

finally. got my wish granted ere. wearin hanbok (korean traditional clothes). hehe. even da dua tahon bertapa kat nihon, still x penah try kimono (japan's), tbe2 g korea smngt plak kn. huheh.

hehe. ngntx da. sok plak smbong.

gudnite!

T_T

gmb celop fesbuk k.wanee :D

haaa...nah gmb nikah smlm. ngeh2

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ekceli smlm soubetsukai - majlis perpisahan dgn senpai2 sume, sedeyh woo nanges2. T_T

sbb rapat ng mereka berempat nih, rse cm nk jerit,

'huwaaa...jgn blik...!'

tp maa ne..stiap pertemuan, ad perpisahan. 

good luck utk anda sume. ima made, iro iro arigatou ne. :)

p/s. tbe2 t'byg esok soubet utk dri sndri. uwah, cptnye mse berlalu.

narutO!

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=.=  T.T  =.= 

da mcm cacing kerawet.

ini la nmenye penangan musim final exam. otak gelong rse buhsan segala mcm mnde rse nk wat.

contohnye cacing persis lambang naruto nih.

aiseyh, igtkn sehari dua da leyh padam. tp smpey arini xd tanda2 nk ilang pon nih. seb bek kt tgn kiri, ley la gak nk cover2. klo tgn kanan, kantoi plak tym menulis.

esok -- robotics + statistical analysis

luse -- decision theory + linear system + production management

tulat -- applied math C + automaton language

tonggek -- algorithm n data structure.

whooaaaa... 8 papers to go.

p/s. i'm not a kid la tapi. ngueh ngeh.

chenta kaseh

alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah.

thanks God for giving me d chance to become a human, again.

thanks ya Allah for Your bless.

percayalah, bukan namanya manusia kalau hidup tanpa arah tujuan.

iA reflected, motivated, yet fluctuated.

but still, God is always there for me.

thus, no need to be worry.

as GOD is always there for me.

yep,

HE is always there, will always be there, for me.

thanks ya Allah, for not leaving me.

appetOn weight gain

"By (the token of) time (through the ages). Verily mankind is in a state of loss, except those who have faith and do righteous deeds, and (join together) in the mutual teaching of truth and of patience and constancy." - The Holy Quran, Chapter 103

musim exam kn.

but still, i'm wasting my time back n forth, watching those stupid heart stunning korean dramas, n even worse, i've came to the point in which i don't even know how to get rid of this worthless habit - to state that im still spendin 1/4 of my time everyday in front of my laptop watching dramas even it is in the exam's week plus loads of work waiting.

haih....so helpless.

i totally forgot my ownself yg x layan drama2 ni dlu. sape la yg mule2 perkenalkn sy kt dunia drama nih?

just want to let u know, i'm stuck in it - your fault -

owh Tuhan, beriku kekuatan nk melawan godaan n dugaan dunia hiburan. istighfar3.

anyway, tbe2 nk ckp sal berat badan. 

hey perempuan2 di luar sana, please stop lying to others that u don't even care about ur own berat badan n so on, because in fact, u do care. yes, i know, u do care, a lot. kn? including me. 

its just something i wanna share here, about my own experience - from someone yg seriously never put a sh*t on matters upon my own weight or perfect BMI and so on before, turning into the 'me' yg everyday keep asking my friend, 'aku nmpk gemuk x?'

-another helpless side of mine-

someone did say to me before (its not someone actually, its kind of everyone ) that i'm such a skeleton. a walking skeleton. because i was too thin compared to my height. everything i put on never seemed perfect in others eyes. x faham sungguh. baju kurung nmpk gelebeh, blouse nmpk cm buley msok dua orang, even just a simple t-shirt pon nmpk mcm pki baju abang. (owh, this were the time way before i've been introduced to those 'baby's t size :D )

yesss, thats because sy terlalu kurus suatu ketika dahulu.

n u know what, during that time, sy x pernah kesah utk telan apa2 saje makanan becoz everything yg sy makan, sebanyak mane pun kuantitinye, xkn berjaya menggerakkan jarum mesin penimbang even 0.01 kilogram (hiperbola sungguh ayat ini). yeah, percayalah. berat badan sy sgt sukar utk diganggu gugat. 

bile org dok kate sy kurusss, kurusss, keding, leper, n bla bla bla, terlintas di hati, perlukah sy mengambil appeton weight gain? ye la, da mkn byk2 pon badan x naek2 kn. pastu plak, nk pki bju lawa2 sket pon nmpk pelik sbb badan kurus sgt, (padahal model2 tu keding2 jek, apsal ok jek..huhu). hehehe... 

tp sy give up, xd mse nk buang duet bli weight gain2 nih, bia jek la bdn sy gni,  pling sempurna sy rse, sbb sy ley mkn sebanyak mne yg sy nak, sesuka hati sy, ble2 mse sje. semua org tahu kn, mkn mknn berat tym mlm2 sgt la berkesan utk menambah berat badan. tp tidak utk sy.

eyh eyh eyh, tp tu sume citer dulu laa... suatu masa di zaman muda remaja dlu. sekarang ni lain cerita. jgn x percaya, badan sy da x kebal makann da. dulu sibuk tgok cermin pk apsal badan kurus, skrg sibuk tgok cermin dok tnye, apsal badan naik. haih...manusia, macam2 sungguh.

maaa ne.. tiada perempuan yg tidak kesahkan kenaikan berat badan. tmbah2 kalo rse naik berkilo-kilo, mesti rse cm, yabai2, perlu diet, kn?

same goes to me.. sumenye bermula time winter first year. untuk pertama kalinye sy pulang ke mesia menerima sapaan saudara-mara dgn ayat - ' wah bahagia dok sne..makin berisi nih ha..' - yg ni bley terima, 'awat bulat sgt muke ni, hang mkn pa sana?' - adoiiyaii aq mkn nasik jek kott.

pelik kn? utk pertama kalinye seluar2 perlu ditukar kerana size peha da x sama, da x muat nk msok. baju2 plak terasa agak terjerut di lengan, sbb lengan pun turut membesar sme. bearing tudung pun da x seperti dlu, sbb muka da membulat. those baby-t sume tuh? dah kalah kain buruk ayah wat balut nangka.

hahaha! 

membuang mse d malam hari dok bebel2 ckp sal berat badan. tp tu lah, motivasi utk mengurangkn berat badan itu ada, tp usahanye xdek. jgn harap sy nk korbankan selera makan sy. huheh. nk joggin, sejok ngat. tngu abes winter ye.

anyway, the moral of the story ;

bersyukurlah dgn ap yg ada..jgn asyik nk merungut n mempersoalkan jek.. GOD almighty knows better kn.

ok2. terasa tbe2 cm ad perasaan utk wat keje.

mari wat report kimatsu.

tolak2 jaoh2 pasokon, babai citer korea. (padahal dr td da berjam-jam ngadap =.=)

gmbr pling berisi yg pernah direkodkan. :D

p/s. spe2 rse mslh x ckop berat bdn, meh dtg cni winter, xya susa2 pki appeton

kiutt miutt

kiutt x?

gambar profile pitcha fesbuk baru.

kiutt kan?

dari drama my princess.

tkot2 nk tgok, sbb,

1) skunk kn musim exm. sy klo melayan drama, x sah x ulang2 scene berkali-kali smpey nk muntah.

2) citer ni abes ujung bulan 2, di mne iA pada ketika itu sy sudah selamat berada di mesia. nnt kempunan plak ble x dpt tgok ending. aiyaa..

xkn nk bli celcom brodben semata-mata nk tgok ending drama jek kn?

gler drama sgt tuh namenye...

(tp possible jek.. =.=)

shiken td?

kechiwa tp maw kuar air mata darah sekalipon apekah gunanye..huhuhu..

tawakkal is d best solution.

ble pk tawakkal. hati baru reti nk tenang.

ok2. mari wat report kimatsu plak. huheh.

p/s. npe 'mute' bacenye miut, tp 'kute' x dibace kiut?