hypocrites.

adatlah kan, nama pun perlawanan - ada kalah ada menang.

Tuhan takdirkan kalah tu untuk xnk bg riak.

kalah tu, tandanya masih belum layak untuk menang.

kalah tu, tandanya nk menguji sejauh mana kentalnya jiwa seorang pejuang.

kalah tu, tandanya....

 nk tgok sket reaksi mereka-mereka yg kononnye penyokong tegar berpatriotik tinggi.

ceyh.

bile kalah, hangpa p maki mcm nk mati naa.

hypocrites.

mcm mne nk cube meniru semangat jepun ye?

for those yg tgok world cup volley ball yg sdang b'lgnsung kt japan skrg ni, korg tau la yg arini team japan dpt kemenangan first setelah kalah 5 game BERDERET. kagum smngt kental penyokong dok serbu stadium setiap hari.

hakikatnye bkn mudah nk berlagak cool n menerima kekalahan dgn hati terbuka kn?

tmbh2 game arini.

'kita tak layak bersorak untuk menang jika tak mampu menyokong ketika kalah'

kredit pic : inche mantan pres.

p/s- sy mmg akn berpatriotik over sket ble jupe byk sgt org dok kutuk maki orang sndri.

Flight 19 + segitiga bermuda.

smlm, drpd sibuk mencari tiket murah utk ke korea, termelencong plak ke pulau-pulau kecil n x diketahui asal-usul (owh geografi kami lemah), iaitu Guam, then termeleret ke Hawai n bla bla bla - smpi ke segitiga bermuda. jaoh x perjalanan?

tibe-tibe terasa sgt berminat utk mengetahui ttg segitiga misteri ini, lalu sy pn dgn tabah dan gigihnye mengoogle segala info yg ada, melompat dri satu laman sesawang ke laman yg laen, sehinggalah sy ketakutan sndri utk meneruskn. lalu sy berhenti, futon ditarik. tdo. nk dijadikn cerita, sedang asyik diulit mimpi, sy terasa dunia seakan bergoncang, katil seolah-olah digegar-gegarkan ke kiri ke kanan. terdetik di hati, adekah sy bermimpi dlm mimpi? (cuak igauan segitiga bermuda menerjah masuk alam separuh sedarku).

terdengar bunyi ketukan di pintu. suara inche rumet, 'wawa, bgn subuh. jishin la, menyirap darah i!' 

suara panik bliaw menerjah lubang telinga. ya Allah, alhamdulillah..nasib baik, di alam nyata rupanya. tp tercuak sikit di hati, dlm seminggu, dua kali peristiwa gempa bumi berlaku di bumi hiroshima ini, dan agak kuat sehingga mampu mengejutkn sy dr tdo (sy mmg susah nk terjaga) - peringatan Allah nk kejutkn sy subuh.

okey, kembali ke segitiga bermuda.

kenapa dinamakn segitiga? - sbb ia adalah kwsn perairan yg terbentuk drpd tiga titik sudut, Miami di Florida, Puerto Rico di Jamaica, dan Bermuda (for those yg xto, Bermuda adelah pulau di bwh kekuasaan British, just like Guam under US). dikatakn kisah segitiga bermuda ni bermula drpd catatan Christopher Columbus lg, siapa yg x kenal dgn Columbus? pelayar terkenal yg kte pernah blaja mse sejarah sekolah menengah dlu.

byk teori ttg kewujudan segitiga bermuda ini, x kiralah drpd cendekiawan barat, mahupun ilmuan2 islam sendiri. ad yg percaya segitiga bermuda ini adelah tmpt berpusatnya segala syaitan, sbb pertembungan arus sejuk dan panas, n bakal menjadi tmpt dajjal keluar. buku yg paling terkenal dlm menghuraikn persoalan ini adelah hasil tulisan penulis Mesir (rujuk sini), yg mana menyimpulkn dajjal adelah samiri - penyesat Bani Israel. x brani utk sy huraikn lebih sbb sy pon tersgtlah cetek dan sempit ilmunye. yg berminat lebih nk tau ttg dajjal, silelah google atau dptkn buku2 yg patut.

then teori laen, yg sy sndri akui sy agk percaya ialah ttg anomali magnetik-gravitasi - yg mne menghasilkn satu daya tarikn yg sgt kuat yg mmpu utk menarik segala objek yg menghampirinya. maka, tidak hairanlah semua kapal-kapal n pesawat boleh hilang tnpa meninggalkn kesan. tapi, untuk  dibuktikn secara saintifik, mungkin x ada lagi para ilmuan yg mmpu melakukannya. 

kite tinggalkn ttg idea-idea fantasi lain ttg wujudnye perkampungn alien di situ, ad medan masa ttg pelangkauan waktu, sisa-sisa penduduk atlantis yg dikatakn terbenam suatu ketika dlu. klo nk dipikikn dgn akal waras, bkn kah x tercapai? tp klo kte berpikir out of the box, mungkin ad, Tuhan punya kuasa, wallahualam.

tp yg lebih menarik minat sy ialah Flight 19. serius imej dlm kepala - final destination.

sepanjang 'pencarian' sy, kisah yg pling berbekas di jiwa ialah ttg kehilangan 5 pesawat US ketika sesi latihan, juga sebuah pesawat penyelamat yg turut hilang dlm usaha mencari mereka tnp dapat dikesan pada 5 Disember 1945.

jiwa rse sebak bila yg dipersalahkn adalah ketua mereka, Leftenan Taylor, yg dikatakn tersalah guide anak2 buahnye sehingga menyebabkn kelima-lima pesawat tersebut terbang semakin menjauhi darat ketika mereka tersesat akibat kompas-kompas yg tidak berfungsi secara tiba2 (ad teori mengaitkn dgn medan magnetik segitiga bermuda yg menyebabkn sume kompas x berfungsi). mungkin ad unsur bias n tokok tmbh, sy pn x tahu, tp tentera laut US mengeluarkn laporan 500 mukasurat menghuraikan siasatan dan pencarian terbesar dlm sejarah dunia itu - yg mne betul-betul meletakkn kesalahn di bahu Taylor.

x dpt dibygkn perasaan keluarga Taylor pd mse itu, di saat mereka kehilangan anak- hilang tnpa diketahui punca, dituduh pule sebagai penyebab kehilangan 26 lelaki yg lain. teringat filem national treasure, yg mne dlm salah satu movienye mengisahkn ttg keluarga watak utama dituduh sebagai penderhaka yg terlibat dlm konspirasi membunuh presiden amerika syarikat, abraham lincoln suatu ketika dahulu. serius mmg terkesan di hati bile tgok penderitaan yg mereka terpksa tanggung, penerimaan org sekeliling terhadap mereka, n dlm kes keluarga Taylor, mungkin mereka terpaksa berhadapan dgn 26 keluarga-keluarga yg lain.

sy cuba mencari lebih lanjut ttg Taylor dan juga keluarganye, tp x jumpe ap sy cri. jd, pencarian ttg Taylor bernoktah di sini.

nama yg seterusnye menarik perhatian sy - Marine Corporal Allan Kosnar.

satu-satunye lelaki yg terselamat dlm skuad tersebut. nasib menyebelahinye, atau mungkin betul dy ad 6th sense, dy menarik dri last minit, menyebabkn salah satu pesawat tu kekurangan crew. ape yg terjadi kepadanye, dan ap responnye slepas peristiwa ni berlaku, serius sy sgt nk tahu, tp x jumpe plak.

sy dpt bygkn hidupnye huru-hara dan x setenang sebelumnye, kn?

ke sy yg byk terpengaruh dgn filem-filem fantasi cm final destination tuh?

menyayat hati bile terbaca yg Taylor pun rupa-rupanye nk menarik dri jugk, tp sbb dy chief n pilot, yg mne perlu ad pengganti klo nk tarik dri, then xd org nk gnti, maka dy terpaksa pegi.

haish, lihatlah para manusia sekalian, menjadi seorang ketua itu bukanlah mudah. apa-apa yg terjadi, kesalahn akn digendong di bahu kita - sesuai ke pengajaran arini?

10 hari lagi menjelang ulang tahun peristiwa misteri ni. sy terjumpe artikel news tentang waris-waris ahli tentera yg terlibat dlm misi tersebut berkumpul memperingati peristiwa tersebut setiap tahun - memorial service turut diadakn oleh navy US.

apa pun yg berlaku, walaupun x mmpu dihuraikan dgn akal logik, selaku umat Islam, seharusnye kite berpegang dgn kepercayaan -tiada apa yg mustahil, segalanya boleh berlaku dlm redha kekuasaan Allah.

ngeri dan misteri.

semoga kisah-kisah begini mmpu memperingatkn kita dgn yg pencipta, amin.

menang ibu emas tte ;p

yeay yeay and yeah!

(err spatotnye arini xd entry, sbb majimeni study utk exam esok)

but well, kemelut menangani emosi yg memberontak utk menonton aksi2 wira2 ensem gagah berani negara (ceyh, dan dan puji m'gunung), mengikut kata hati, buku ku tutup, pasokon ku full screen, mata ku terpacak melekat x kedip-kedip (ayat over, sumimasen).

hehe. sempat le plak scroll2 status fb n timeline twitter kn. dlm kerut-kerut gelisah game yg sengit, sesekali geli jugk tali pusat m'bce coretan emo penyokong tegar skuad harimau muda.

CAPS lock tanda emosi.

harapan dan pujaan. sperti bese, trending hangat - khairul fahmi.

*haish, klo aq jd awek dy pon retired tarik dri kot.*

errr..yg ni trending jugk ekceli.

rezeki yg memihak.

terima kasih Tuhan.

erk.yg ni siyes wat gelak guling2.

tp, bese la. byk jugk yg pattern mcm nih.haha. nk wat mcm mne, minat x boleh dipaksa. i know i know.

status pilihan arini,

otsukarechann minna!

p/s- yappari muke otromen :p

the man in the black suit.

supposed nye arini blaja spanjang ari demi menebus semalam dan kelmarin yg puas berpoya-poya - haih, bukak2 mate matahari pon da nk tenggelam blik, mcm mne nk study nye, kn?

macam mana nk ubah habit nih? i meant, cmne nk kurangkn masa tidur? i used to sleep 3~4 hours per day mse kt aaj dlu, even mse kt skola pon. and seingat memori akal ni, mse first year kt jepun ni dlu pon, maksimum sleep 6hours jek sehari. but after two years, how can it change drastically to 8hours per day, minimum. hoh. rs nk pukul dri sndri. eyh, mungkin x drastik, sndri jek yg x sedar kot.

semangat plak siap wat statistik jumlah tidur harian plak.

owh, nampaknye tidur maximum adelah pada hari khamis.huerm, since jumaat xd class, so cm tidur puas2 konon2. utk wiken, less sleep, besela, byk sgt aktiviti nk dibuat kn.heee.

tambah2 musim sejuk nih.haaa, lagi la berhibernasi xnk gerak ke mne2 rse. ishh, mne otak x makin lembab, da tdo jek kejenye.huh!

kompem2 la xley kawen lagi, nk urus jadual mse tdo sndri pon x pndi lagi.

teiuka, ckp pasal kawen...

wishing for a man in the black suit.

i dunno either.

through faith and prayer, i am moving on to my own future.

wish me luck for my exam!

hari ini hari jumaat

ichi nichi jyuu yg menyeronokkan lagi memberangsangkan jiwa bak umpama ibarat *ape punye bahase la nih* free soul yg terbang merata-rata dgn bebasnye! - hoh, explanation meruntun jiwe nestapa.

ok, berenti merepek.

arini ari jumaat - seperti kebiasaannya, xdek kelas. teiuka, dari awal sem memang sengaja nk kosongkn jadual hari jumaat konon2nye senang klo nk berjalan atau 'bermusafir' ke mane-mane sbb cuti 3renkyu.

maaa ne.. perancangan Tuhan lebih bijak lagi adil *tbe2*

jadi, untuk mengisi jiwa lara yg asyik dahagakn suka ria, sy pon menghasut dan terhasut si adek maness utk berpoye-poyean ke shinai - hiroshima city!

-keluar bersuka ria di saat org laen pegi skola mcm bese agk naisu sbb jln x sesak, kedai x penuh, tmpt mkn x mampat.hehe-

konon-kononnye free soul kn, berjalan tanpa arah (eyh mcm tipu. ad jugk la hala tujuan), tp tanpa sebarang kekangan dan halangan serta perbatasan yg perlu dipikirkn, for example, nk kne rushin utk keja train toka, nk kene cepat2 tkot org len tunggu toka, nk kne g sini sinun sbb nk kne ikot org len nk g toka, zenzen nain desu~ dakara, jiwe terasa indah~

sesampai di shinai, menjamu perut yg kelaparan dgn kedai kek tabehoudai!

- kedai viking desert, mmg sgt nikmat n indahnye perasaan potong sndri pelbagai jnis kek yg salu mmpu bli seketul due jek klo kt kedai bese. hehe. tp maaa, sbb manis n berkrim sgt kn, muak jgk ekceli. ppe pon, still rs heaven :p

next, xtvt berwajib!

berchenta dgn mesin purikura aaa :))


then,
smbung berjalan dan berjalan dan berjalan. shopping la sket - stoking dan juge

menatang nih..
comel kan?
hikhik.


pergi dgn harapan, pulang dgn kepenatan.
pakej lengkap kepuasan.
hehe.

timekaseh che adek kohai sbb sudi terheret ke mane jue.... wlopon dirimu tipis, tp xpe, tipis itu seksi :p

bolero - up up and away ~

got the new look!

ehemm.. since da buhsan dgn yg lame kn.hehehe. x salah untuk mengambil langkah berani dgn mencuba sesuatu yg baru.hoho. betul x?

well, since life is gettin complicated these days, sy x dpt nk beraksi normal dgn semua orang, so, pardon me for that, really sorry. iA, gettin much better as time passes, n i'm back on the track. heeee..

for the past few days, i kept listening to this DBSK song. well, boleh la nk ckp bulan ni memanjang demam dbsk, n semuanya bermula drpd jejoong dlm citer protect the boss. oh, just fyi, skunk xde le minat jejoong sgt da, he's second compared to xiah junsu 

*heeeeeeeeeeeee grinnnnnnnnnnn*

(ciss gatal betul perempuan nih. oh i'm sorry)

ok, back to the story. i've found this song is pretty inspiring. i dunno why, just somekind like motivating myself, urghh even xto daripada mana kaitannye, woohha!!

 so, i raped the replay button on the utube (omg the youtubers taught me this phrase!), dan boleh kata setiap minit setiap saat lagu ni di telinga. ceyh, kalau berzikir kn lagi bagus. istighfar sekejap.huhu.

nak tahu lagu ap?

feel free to click the utube video on your left. i put it as lullaby for this week.hehehe.

wanna know the implicit and explicit meaning of this song? me as well. so i did google the translation since my nihongo pon ala-ala basi mcm nasik ayam da sebulan terperup dlm peti sejuk.

and, here it is.

'on the moon stage that floats in the darkness

i had a dream of you dancing there

the deep, deep wound of your heart

don't bear them all one by one

nobody will blame you

it's okay to be who you are

let me hear the melody of the lovely, fragile

balleria that is played by your tiptoes

fly up

your sadness will also find a place to be healed

inside the dark room

the satisfying overflow from the window of the heart

dreams grow under the moon light

you frantically engrave the rhythm of hope

dreams grow

you seem to be yourself

you flap your wings freely

and search for the answer that no one will ever know

oh...

let you dance away

don't you know, yeah

i'll stand by your side

yeah..

fly away, fly away, fly away, fly all the way to the top

fly forever yeah yeah yeah

forever i will continue to iluminate you

i will watch over your future

no matter where you go

i'll continue to wish for u

i'll protect so..

let me hear the dazzling, heart-rending

ballerina that shines by passion

the song of joy

you're never alone

so

fly up with all your life's strength

your place is here

your place...

is here'

yes, my place is here.

n yes, i am never alone. minna iru jyann? :)

i will fly up with all of my life's strength, even if i am not a ballerina, i am an engineer (-to-be), so what?

lets do our best, because we don't even know what is waiting for us ahead.

inspiring right?

p/s. i dun mind if u want to take this song as ur so called inspiring song as well, just dun take my xiahhhhh... :p

how and how!

how to cope with an ex moving on.

(...............................................................................................)

Everyone has heartache at some point in their lifetime. A relationship ending is bad enough, especially when it is not ended on your terms. The situation becomes even harder, however, when you see your ex move on, leaving you in the dust.Keeping everything in perspective and knowing how to deal with your feelings will have you back up on your feet in no time.

First,  make sure to keep your composure.If you ever come across your ex, and they acknowledge you, do not have a breakdown.

Second, realize that you have no control over your ex's actions. You are usually completely powerless in this situation, especially if you were broken up with.

Third, do not blame yourself. It is pointless to sit around dwelling on what you think were bad decisions on your part in the relationship.

Forth, allow yourself to feel your emotions. You may feel anger, sadness or even despair. Let these emotions flow.

Fifth, find things to occupy your time. Hang out with your friends!

Sixth, remember the lessons you learned from the experience. This may take a while.

Seventh, remember that all wounds heal in time.You'll soon adapt to your new life, and the situation will not seem so dreary after all.

Lastly, make sure that you move on, too.In fact, many people cannot completely get over their ex until they find a new love.

source:here

kebahagian hak milik setiap insan

;))

p/s. sedang pening saket jiwe menyiapkn slide presentation esok.ganbare me!

a to the b to the c d e!

ya Allah, kuatkan jiwa si pemilik hati ini.

aku kuat!

mengawal kemarahan itu memenatkan.

melepaskan kemarahan pula bisa mengundang penyesalan.

jadi mau plih yg mne?

"orang yg paling kuat adalah org yg berjaya menahan kemarahan"

okay, mari melatih diri menjadi kuat!

and always be

;))

yours sincerely,

the cooooolest me.

mmuah!

blood type A and cortisol?

sy mmg sgt berpassionate about blood type.

whenever i feel something is going wrong with myself, i'll try to figure the reason out by linking it to my blood type. its kinda weird 'superstitious', i know, but at least it helps me a lot to calm me down.

because lately, i'm pretty lost myself. maybe i'm stressed out with the homework, report and programming, but to be honest, it is not like i'm a 'first time student'. i've been here for 3 years, and i've being through this a lot before. so, why?

i tried to google A type personality, and i found this, a good article entitle 'what makes a type A an individual'. 

'In this busy, ever changing world, it's almost impossible to avoid every day stress. Type As have a naturally high level of the stress hormone cortisol and produce more in response to stressful situations.

Due to the naturally elevated cortisol in type As, additional stress often manifests in several ways; disrupted sleep patterns, daytime brain fog, increased blood viscosity (thickening), and promotes muscle loss and fat gain. In extreme cases in Type As, stress can manifest in more serious ways, causing obsessive-compulsive disorder, insulin resistance and hypothyroidism.  

He also points out that the following factors are known to increase cortisol levels and increase mental exhaustion for Type As - be aware and limit your exposure when possible:

• Crowds of people
• Loud noise
• Negative emotions
• Smoking
• Strong smells or perfumes
• Too much sugar and starch
• Overwork
• Violent TV and movies
• Lack of sleep
• Extreme weather conditions (hot or cold)

Heightened cortisol levels make it harder for Type As to recover from stress.'

plus to that, i googled some more.

'People with blood type A have a deep-rooted strength that helps them stay calm in a crisis when everyone else is panicking (i guess this is right). However, they tend to avoid confrontation, and feel very uncomfortable around people (i think just around people yg x bpe kenal jek). A types are shy and sometimes withdrawn. They seek harmony and are very polite, but all the same feel that they never really fit in with others. A types are very responsible. If there is a job to be done, they prefer to take care of it themselves. These people crave success and are perfectionists. They are also very creative, and the most artistic of all the blood types, most likely because of their sensitivity.

People with blood type A are also likely to be considered classic "type A's": stressed and conscientious.'

 A type = stressed?

such a heart-breaking discovery. 

so, i am the stressed type hu? 

what, limit exposure to crowds of people? i think i do love crowds of people, but seems like it is bad for my cortisol level. should i change that?

eyh, btw, actually, i need some motivation for tomorrow. i'm gonna have a test, a report need to be submitted, and a so-called meeting that sort of as i'm responsible of. and the day after tomorrow, i still need to do my programming report which should be done within two weeks but i delayed it so much till i dun have another option except finishing it within a day, and the next day after the day after tomorrow, i'm gonna have a new task of programming jikken.

huh.

yess, i'm stress!

well, since my cortisol level is different from other blood types, don't blame me for that.

hheh.manusia memang suke mencari alasan.

sekurang-kurangnye alasan itu membantu menenangkan.hoho.

conscientious leads to perfection.

perfection leads to stress.

yeah, i see the relation!

aki weyyy

 x cukup masa nk menaip, tp nk gk hapdet belog. 

so letak gmbr jek xpe kn?

nmpk kot urat darah dari mata dy nk ke muncung nye tuh. huuuuuuu...seram seriau tgok.

sgt suke gmbr ni buley x?

tema gambar? KECERIAAN DI MUSIM LURUH!

tinak ketin tanaa mohabbatein yennadey yennadeyy chentaku gugur di musim luruh.

sy bukanlah seorang artis.

mahupun penchenta seni.

mahupun pelagak ngeri.

mahupun penshooter berani mati.

eyh, nk ckp x pndi amek gmbo jek pon.

daa, bye!

p/s.nway, td g kouyou a.k.a meninjautinjau dedaun coklatkuningmerah musim luruh.